I am a Feisty Little Cosplay Model, Writer, Photographer, Part Time Flake, Gamer, Nerd Girl, Professional Eccentric and Muse. I’m half Nerd from her father’s side and half mystical creature from my mother’s.
My passion for gaming began when I was all but a wee 2 year old lass, who sat on my father’s lap to reach the computer and play Dragon’s Lair and McGee games.
As someone who suffered from severe social anxiety in school I saw video games and card games as a release and escape. Rather than painting my nails or learning how to braid my hair, I would compete in Magic the Gathering, build theme parks in Roller Coaster Tycoon, save the world from mutant tentacles, battle Sephiroth, discover I was a child of Bhaal, traveled through various planes of existence to learn what can change the nature of a man, and trained Pokemon into the late hours of the night.
I was content in my virtual world and really didn’t have much of a social life as a child outside of my small group of friends. Back then there was no wireless multiplayer options so my parents connected all of our computers by long LAN cables we ran through the floor and through rooms to play Diablo. Even though my mom would make fun of games and call them “dorky” she too spent many, many hours kicking butt in the dungeons and catacombs.
Before conventions became the phenomenon they are today, I had quite a few experiences at cons at a young age. My father would take me to conventions throughout the north east (game conventions, comic cons, computer shows, Magic the Gathering tournaments, miniature war game conventions). Some of my fondest memories of with my dad growing up were on these adventures.
By my teen years I began to realize, most people were not like me. I started to embrace that which made me different and would often wear prosthetic ears and dress up for school as a fairy or elf. Some days I’d come up with characters to be and would go in and out of character (much to my mothers dismay). No I wasn’t some crazy person with multiple personalities, I was simply a girl who was bored and wanted so much to bring some fun into the otherwise mundane and unpleasant world that was high school. That’s when one of my friends taught me the name of it; cosplay.
As a young adult I had a very hard time just functioning. I was in and out of being homeless and really unsure what direction I wanted to take my life in. I was lost and spiraling down further and further. That was until 2012 when I sat down and told myself I needed a plan and some direction. So I wrote one… and it worked.
I decided to go back to my roots. I was going to be the model I always wanted to be while including my hobbies. I would use social media to promote myself and create an fan base. I decided no one was going to come and “discover me”. No one was going to hold my hand and help make me into something worthwhile. It was up to me to make something of myself. I took what money I had saved at that moment and put it into advertising. (I invested in me). My advertising campaigns were wildly successful and In a few short years I amassed a fan base of over a million throughout all my social networks.
What separates what I do from what other cosplay models, gamers, and youtubers do is no matter how big or small my fan base has been my biggest focus has always been on communication. I strive and enjoy communicating with my fans, not just as a group but on a more personal level in the comment sections of my pages. I never just make a post without following up in the comments to talk with my fans. I feel this is what gives a sense of community, trust, and intimacy (no not that kind :P) to my online presence that many other big name personalities do not have. I see my followers as humans (not numbers), I sincerely care about many of them, and I in return am very real back.
I feel cosplay as an art form isn’t merely the costume itself. For me it goes beyond that. It’s a form of self expression. Despite what many might gather from how I present myself on the internet, I am an introvert. Through costumes and cosplay I really am able to come out of my shell and just have fun!